This has to be one of the greatest things I have ever done, the skydive in August 2017. When Joel was diagnosed he always said once he was better he would join me in a jump for charity. That day never came so when Jody bought me this gift for my 50th birthday I decided I would take him with me and set him free up there whilst raising funds for St Francis Hospice who took such good care of him during his final weeks 😥

It was the most amazing day. The sky was a perfect blue and the sun was shining, not a cloud in sight. Couldn't have been better conditions just like it was meant to be. Paula joined me on the day to jump and we were so excited. The instructors were very good at explaining and put our minds at ease, I was fine as I had Joel with me tucked into my jump suit. You can see the huge grin I had on my face in the plane, I was so happy. 😌The flight up was steady and several people jumped before me so I watched them fall then float to the ground the views  were fantastic and you could  see for miles. It was quite cold up there and the wind was strong.

My turn came and as I sat on the edge of the plane all I could think of was Joel this would be the last thing we ever do together.😭We were about to drop 10000 feet at a speed I really cannot remember . We rolled out the plane with the camera man filming every breathe. It was fantastic the feeling of being free and the pressure of the speed was  quite unexpected so it took me a while to actually breathe normally I think the shock of  doing this and the reasons just hit me. Once it was controlled I relaxed and just enjoyed every second. The shute was let out and we flew up then gradually floated thousands of feet above the earth gently falling to the ground. It was the most amazing wonderful experience I have ever experienced. The silence is what I noticed staight away and the calmness, so liberating I really didn't want to come down. My instructor gave me the signal to get ready to release Joel so I removed him from my suit unzipped the bag and shook him free 😭 my baby boy was flying with me over the earth and gently floating in the sky all around me. We did it and we did it together after all.

I shall remember that day as one of my greatest but also one of my worst as it wasnt how I expectd it to be. I was happy I had done it and grateful to Jody for the wonderful gift. But it was nit the way I wanted it to be 😭

Paula was waiting after her fall on the ground to meet me with a huge smile And a hug, we had both loved it. Our families watched us all fall and were very proud . Brian , Jody and me hugged when I got back and it was very emotional I tnink they were releaved i was on solid ground again, but I just wanted to go back up. 💚 What a wonderful day. 💚 love and miss you Joel so wish you were there with me in body not spirit. 💔