I have so many memories with Joel that will never leave me because Joel was my first true love and like any young couple alot of “firsts” were shared. First time i stayed round a boys house, first boyfriend on a family holiday, first dates, first time meeting the parents and everything else in between, you always remember “the first time”, never did i think it would ever be “the last time”, i cant remeber the last time we sat in his room eating cream slices and huge chocolate bars, i can't remember the last time we listened to our favourite song together, the last time he sang “mr lonely” or his impression of “the crazy frog” or even the last time we sat on the back step smoking like most teenagers of our age did. But i do remember our last conversation, which brought back every first memory we shared, and those are the memories i will never forget. Spending hours in his bedroom eating, laughing, sleeping to rainforest music, Brian bashing on the ceiling telling us to be quiet and trying so hard to pretend we were asleep so we wouldnt be separated and always failing. I wish i could put into words what Joel meant to me but there wouldnt be enough pages, but everything we shared is stored in my heart forever. 💚